On procrastination

I am just going to say - that it has been 3 months since I did anything on this blog - and I was hoping to write every night! This may be strange for some of you to hear - but I have always had difficulty keeping commitments that I make to myself. For example - the only reason I finished a Masters and Doctorate degree was because I felt responsible to my professors and advisers. I would not have finished if I had committed to myself to do these things.

So - how do I go about deciding to lose more weight and write here every day? Anybody want me to commit to them?

On Jealousy

I have a good friend in San Diego who taught himself to surf since starting in June. I tried for a year and couldn't get anywhere. However - he spent much more time than I did trying to learn. Why is it that I get jealous of people who can learn to do things that I can't? Even when I don't put forth the effort. It is that strength of Maximizer! I wish I could do many things - but I tend to do only the things that I am good at. Then of course - I am really good at them - some of them better than my surfer friend. I wonder if he is jealous of me?

On Death

I was wondering today if I would rather die young and have many friends and family mourn my loss, or die old and have many friends and family welcome me home.

Then I thought - since I won't be around for them to mourn, then I would rather die old and have them welcome me home.

But then I thought - I already know so many who would welcome me home and so dying young wouldn't be so bad.

And then I thought - I am about to be 37 - I am not young.

Thoughts on moving to IWU

I have realized in the last few weeks how much following God's lead in brining yourself into His will does for your life. While I loved PLNU and San Diego I knew I was being called away - and frankly it was scary. but now that I have spent 2 months here I look back and see all that God has done to provide in all ways for Levi and I. We have a beautiful home, he is in a great school situation, I love my job, the people I work with, and our students.

And everyday I see things happening that remind me that He is watching over me. Tonight when I went to put the dog to bed the sunset was absolutely amazing - the colors were spreading over the entire sky - over my head and even behind me as I was watching the sun go down.

God is good.

Water parks and sick kids

This weekend was weird. I was going to mow the yard on Friday afternoon - but the grass didn't look long enough to mow. So Levi and I decided to go and see Dark Knight. DK was definitely much more thought provoking that the other batman movies and I didn't feel that it was as dark as people have told me that it was.

Saturday we went with our friends Brandon and Amanda to a waterpark for Amanda's birthday and Levi was too scared to go down any of the water slides. He spent most of the day watching the rest of us go down the slides. He did love the wave pool though and spent an hour in there. I think that he got dehydrated though as during the night he got sick and was sick most of today and spent the whole day in front of the television groaning and moaning. It is so hard as a father to not have anything that you can do to help.

The house was initiated today by Levi and the Dog. Levi spilled 2 glasses of water in the TV room and the dog pee'd in my bedroom on the first day I have let him in the house. Then when the dog got punished Levi started crying because he didn't like the dog being punished. I felt a little helpless with a sicj crying son and a peeing dog and a cat who wanted to see what the dog was doing and an energetic dog that wants to be friends with the cat which results it him getting clawed on the nose!

I also felt my masculinity go up today though as I leaned out a window to repair an exterior security light and it worked when I was done! I also installed a cable from the back door of our home to the shed so that when winter comes we can let the dog out the back door to go potty without having to go outside!

Inspired by my sister

I read through my sister's blog today (http://tenminuteseachday.blogspot.com/) and decided that I should follow her very good example of sharing her thoughts. I figure that even if nobody is interested enough to read them that at least I would be taking time to make reflection which is good for me. So - I will try and share a deep thought every day here.